Hey, I'm logging in the first time in a year or two it feels. I've been away due to having a job at the time and being burned out from modding fallout.

One other reason I haven't been on for a long time is I had an event in my life where I almost died from a self inflicted gunshot wound. I'm still working on getting my life back together and fighting everyday to make progress. I still have a lot on my plate but I'm going to try to be more active here and I even have some interest again in modding FNV and updating my old files here.

Overall, I'm doing better now and I have learned alot with what I went through last year and what's going on still.

If you ever feel alone, depressed, and suicidal. Know that you're never alone in this world. Your friends care, your family cares, and even strangers care. Always fight, never give up on not just yourself, but for the ones around you, life is a gift, never take it for granted.

Damn.....Well man i understand where you have been i almost blew my brains out but it misfired and threw the shotgun away in anger that was 2 years ago and im a MMA fighter i workout everyday and i teach kids how to both fight and show them how to better use their anger in a productive way. Im happy to hear you're on your feet and headed for a life that you want i also understand that the thoughts are always there it's a everyday thing sometimes but man welcome back and im glad your sticking around not just on here but in life period.

Thanks for the kind words both of you.

Still have a lot on my mind regarding my life and even more surgery coming very soon to fix a hole inside my nose. I've been learning to cut off toxic elements in my life, making the hard but right decisions to better myself since I already have alot going on right now.

I can see a lot has changed here, feels like yesterday seeing moderators here and even other members who used to be overseers.