My heart hurts.
How much can one person lose before they’re completely numb?
I don't know.
I feel like I’m being targeted, like I’m permitted nothing.
I lose everything.
I don’t want to feel sorry for myself, but I keep on losing.
I lose everyone.
My pets, so near to me, so dear, but always gone too soon.
Who is next?
My mother? My father? My sisters? I am the only brother.
I keep losing.
My friends, my comfort, my own life, surely.
I don't want this.
It hurts, but not as much as it did the first time.
That's the worst.
Are these lives not equal? Why does my heart get to chose who is worthy of grieving.
Maybe I’m bitter.
Maybe I’m numbing with every loss. I want to be happy, I don’t want to be rewarded.
Somebody, help me!
I just want to live my life, with simple pains and simple joys.
The sun shines.
Only on cloudy days, but when it rains it pours.
Why always me?
No one around me is hurt this often, everyone is allowed to live their lives.
There is life.
It still surrounds me, it comes in smiles and in sunshine, it comes in hugs and other survivors.
I can't see.
It's too dark to see it, it is a shame.
I feel alone.
I know I’m not, but I feel that way, I’ve been alone before, when I hurt the most.
Hurt the most.
What does that mean? What pain is the worst? Raw pain, or knowing that I will soon feel nothing.
I need to be alone.

Depression sets in.

wow geez thats a total downer, what the heck happened to put you in that low a mood?

Hey man, I know I'm just a stranger on the internet. but if you need to have a chat don't hesitate to pm me and I'll be all ears.

I can't possibly know what you're going through right now but I can tell from your post it hurts. and if you don't feel like talking about it that's completely understandable.
but yeah, hope you're doing okay mate.

I'm sorry to hear you're going through a tough time right now, and words on a webpage probably aren't gonna help much, but a life grieved was a life loved.

Not sure if that means much right now, but it sure meant a lot to me at a real bad time. Hope whatever happened, there's something there you can at least smile about.

Hey, y'all, just want to say before I go to bed tonight that I'm gonna be okay. I've been through this before by myself, I'll make it through again this time. Thanks to everyone who was concerned, yer good folks.